dyingdancer

so i lost those 4 pounds that i'd gained. now i have to lose 8 more. i want to get there by my 21 birthday. that would be rad.

anyway, i just got back from the boy's house. i like him a lot and i hate it. i caught myself smiling as i left his place this morning and got mad at myself. why can't i just let myself fall for someone as great as he is? he LOVES my body and makes me feel sexy. nobody makes me feel better than he does. so why am i afraid of him? whatever. ill just have my fun for now...see what happens. lol