dyingdancer

i'm doing so badly. ive eaten more than any human ever should the past two days because im so frustrated with my situation this summer- IM BORED SHITLESS!! my roommates NEVER want to go out- EVER. all the people i always go out with are home for the summer- the closest ones are 2 hours away. they're coming on july 20 and i cant wait, but what am i supposed to do until then? the guy i'm seeing works ALL THE TIME. i see him once a week. what am i supposed to do the other 6 nights? i get off work (at a gym) and go to the school gym to kill time, but they close at 9. and then im bored and alone. can't call the boy cause he's at work. the roommates are at work. and if they werent, they'd be watching tv. sarah is too lazy to go out, and kristi's boyfriend is a dick about her going out. i miss my party girls SO much. so im bored and alone and mad- so i eat. and somehow ive still lost weight, but i dont think ill keep being that lucky for very much longer. its all gonna catch up to me. i hate this so fucking much. i wish i could either see the boy more often, or find one who had more time for me. but its impossible to meet boys when i never leave the apartment, unless its to go to a movie. and i'm not about to start going to bars or clubs by myself. thats creepy and sketchy and just plain sad. i cant wait for summer to be over so my friends can come home to me. :