I made the mistake of going back in the kitchen and my mom was there and she almost forced me to
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I made the mistake of going back in the kitchen and my mom was there and she almost forced me to ( The Plan ) Sun, Nov. 8th, 2009, 01:44 am
I'm doing this project for class where I basically promote vegetarianism. My project is called Save Face -- it's sort of a play on words. Save face (reputation) by saving face (animal faces). Anyway, here are some posters for it: here and here. The first one might be a little sensitive, so be careful! Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 10:49 pm
i tried on my jeans tonight and they weren't any tighter but they weren't any looser so that means more heavier fasting/restricting this week. 45 days until christmas. i will be skinnier!!!!! Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 10:31 pm
Well, today i 2 peices of toast 2 egg whites w/ a little bit of yoke Took a shower a Then mom made me make ...under Sun, Nov. 8th, 2009, 02:09 pm
I'm not really sure what the point of this post was. I was just shocked. I guess in a way I'm trying to get the point across that, being a size 0 isn't the be all and end all. No matter how much we starve or utilize other means etc, there are points that physically we just won't be able to cross. We can't starve our bones away. I know that people don't come on here to be mothered, and that's not what I'm trying to do at all. I mean I'm hardly in a position to do so even if I did want to. But it's just a thought to ponder I guess. I don't know. Anyway, much love. And be as safe as you can :) Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 10:20 pm
I WAIT MYSELF TOSDAY AND I AM 50 PONDS PAST MY GOAL WAIT I DONT WANT TO KEEP BEIN LIKE THIS AND I KNOW I AM FAT BUT I JUST WANTS SOME HELP TOO IS THAT TSO MUCH TO AKS PLESE REPLY SERIOSLY ONLY AND DNT MAKE FUN OF ME AND IF I DONTT REPLY ITS CASEU I AM HEATTNG UP SOMM POPCOIRN IN THE MICDROWADFVE MMM BUTTTER Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 10:31 pm
Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 07:10 pm
i wanna die. i want to be skinny. my friends nd sister's r going out while i stay in and excersise nd maybe watch t.v, maybe get drunk nd party wit ana..................................... strave on beauties!! :))) "so maybe we should just start all over." - someday rob thomas "would you like to leave this human race." - this is for keeps by the spill canvas- love this song! :)) Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 06:44 pm
So winding down on day 4 of my master cleanse. Been a titch hungry today, but makin it through. Yesterday I had to cook a meal - so I armed myself with sugarless gum, not quite on the plan but sometimes these things have to happen. Today I was supposed to go over to a friends house because I have to write a research paper - I am in CC and she is in Uni so her library kicks my library's ass and in this lovely age of technology you can acess 70% of the info, including books online. However you have to have student I.d. - so she's gonna log in for me so I can use the Uni database and such without having to drive the hour to the campus. This was supposed to be at noon today. She's got food all over her damn counters and I was a little worried about her trying to feed me, but I figured I could always leave if it got to be an issue. However she didn't answer her phone all day - finally called me and was like - well come over at 10pm (that is when her husband goes to work) I figure this is good because even though I'll be up later than I want (i've been really trying hard to get lots of sleep since I started the fast) at least not eating after 10 is totally normal. Then I mention that my momma sent me a $50 gift certificate for JC penny's so I can get some pants. (I had been bitching about having to wear belts because I hate them and then she talked to my brother and he told her how baggy and dumb my jeans looked so she took pity on me... love my momma) and my friend mentioned that SHE was going jean shopping tomorrow - so now I am spending the night at her house and then we are going shopping. This is a problem. The details of which, and what I hope will be an effective solution, I will put under a cut because there has got to be triggers in there somewhere.... ( FML, and a Plan ) Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 09:38 pm
Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 06:21 pm
It hurts. It hurtsssss. I wanna die right now. :'( FML I'm fat. Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 06:18 pm
Other than that I had to go to a family lunch today, and I picked at a salad, and was very good! My obese aunt was eying me while I ate, but I didn't care, it was motivating to watch her scarf down her Burger and fries while I ate my salad :) Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 07:58 pm
I haven't been on here in a while beacause I forgot my log in and got distracted with thinspo vids on youtube but anyway, my life sucks and i hate my body and i'm a total and complete failure. First off, i've missed a month of school and the princepal called and I have to be Fine, wtf ever. I've always hated that school, there a bunch of stuck up, physcos. And i can get through this I binged on bread yesterday. Omg. Oh and guess when i woke up today? 3 in the afternoon. Wtf is wrong with me? I can't sleep at night beacause of my stomcah. I'm going to either take cold med, benadry or loratab to put me to sleep tonight. My life is I weighted Life just fucking sucks right now. ~Stay strong, think thin Sorry about the lang.... I just need to vent.Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 09:07 pm
Well I had cherry tomatoes wrapped with pickle slices (it's good) & that was it. Tips for how to get through parties like that; -totally ignore the food, don't give it more than a glance -& DEFINITELY don't even think about how it tastes, don't let it cross your mind for a second. This I think is the most important skill needed to stay strong. -immerse yourself in a conversation that you're actually enjoying while everyone eats -eat something safe before you go so you don't start making "but I'm hungry" excuses. Sun, Nov. 8th, 2009, 02:41 pm
OMG cherry antacids taste soooooo good!! i'v decided to live on cherry antacids, cigarettes and water from now on =D ok so it's 2.40pm here and it's so sunny, such a great day. but i have exams in about 8 days so i am locked up at home trying to study i guess it's not going so great cos im a huge procrastinator. so far i ate 200g of tabouli(about 180cal), and a multigrain bread roll(about 200cal) and i couldnt physically purge :/ whatever, i guess 380cal for the day aint too bad. then i had a sudden epiphany!! cherry antacids and water!! WOOOHOOOO!! oh and cigarettes the fam's outa the house, at my cousin's for a plate or 2, of fat they call lunch. used the 'study' excuse and got outa it. does anybody know if too many antacids are bad for you? i mean, seizure or heart-attack bad, not head-rush bad. xox Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 08:32 pm
I consumed 300 calories (: that was my goal! read my journal it explains it all, don't be afraid to add me, i love friends, the more friends, the more motivation! (: Okay well i was just thinking this and i thought i would share it. BREAKFAST- think DON'T BREAK your FAST. Lunch- DON'T munch! Dinner- think THINNER. (: i thought it was cute and funny, it's like a hidden motivation! I swear whoever made up the names breakfast, lunch, and dinner must of me ana. Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 04:46 pm
i hate taking pictures... god!! it makes me have the worst thaughts about myself... the thoughts i supress just to get myself through the day... they all came flooding back when i saw the picture............ :/ current status: fragile Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 06:24 pm
I was standing up all day too! Last night i was doing some research and found out i've been having tiny partial seizures cause i get little twitches and i blank out alot. well its seizures and so i told my mom and now she wants me to get my head checked out. Well i've had them since i was 11 when i used to actually pass out and fall out of my chair. well... if you weren;t too concerned then why be conserned now? I mean she used to think it was a joke i played i guess... anyways thats whats new with me. I guess it doest hurt to go ask my doctor if it could be harmful in the long un but i dont think its worth a trip. thats just me though... 158! Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 06:55 pm
I've been putting out a crapload of these bracelets, and if you want one -- for free -- just post in here telling me which one you want. First come, first serve. ( Read more... ) Sat, Nov. 7th, 2009, 06:15 pm
In other news, the other day I bought a pedometer and have been wearing it constantly until I go to sleep. I walked 10,000 steps today and burned about 1000 cals just by walking. I love this thing because it makes me walk alot more cause I like to see it change haha. Hope everybody else is doing great! xoxoxo |
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